The Wrong In Me

I do not deserve to be on this earth

Too many fuck ups, I am sure you have heard

One screw up sends me back to my hole

Can’t control that of which you don’t own

Feeling lost, too few rights and far too many wrongs

It feels like I am just the watcher and simply do not belong

To use this body and soul that of which I am told, I am withdrawn

Shattered… scattered… brain

Will you mend your broken pieces, for me?

Try and understand that I had to shatter my broken intact mind

In order for me to rebuild it into a functioning healthy eye?

I question my own existence in times where I feel away

Will those around me simply continue to be OK?

Will I miss them as much as they would miss me?

Am I the beneficiary in our relationship and that by leaving there will be some relief?

Weathered… hardened… heart

Will you beat for me like you did before all this fell apart?

I know, I have not taken care of you like I should

My focus is always elsewhere and hardly on you

You bind allegiances and break friendships

Rich or poor, you don’t have a preference if you’re telling

As all joy and pain traverses through your great dwelling

Therefore I plea, please forgive me and help restore me

Forgive my past habits and wrongdoings

Unless every action was an irrespirable offense

For which you will hold me responsible for these transgressions?

I can only be completely open for you to see my wrongs

And you can judge me then

Published by Beipher

I have been writing poetry since a teenager but did not have the courage to really show it off. It wasn't until I had some tools as I battled depression and mental illness. They are still a part of me, which you will see for yourself. My writing is dark and raw.

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